The Gucci bag of dreams

I’m a very comfortable high street shopper. I can shop in store or online willy nilly and not bat an eyelid. The thought of shopping designer goods however makes me feel like I’m trying to sit on the cool table at school, when I’m just not quite cool enough. They intimidate me. I think it has something to do with the fact that I never thought I’d be able to own anything ‘a little pricey’ or with such a reputation. I never felt good enough. I remember my first designer purchase being a Vivienne Westwood necklace and I cherished it. I really felt cool wearing it and wanted to show it off at any opportunity.

Since then I have collected a few different items, all picked very carefully and with a little bit of hesitancy (thats me being a tad frugal) but each item I’ve been incredibly proud of. All have been I’d say lowish cost designer accessories, so more affordable, nothing over a couple of hundred pounds. Each item also being a staple, something that I wear and wear and wear. For me they are little landmarks in time of achieving or accomplishing something, tokens of being proud of myself.

Now I know recently I bought the Stella’s and again HUGE deal and I have worn the shit out of these shoes, all thanks to the inspiration from Megan. But there was something else on my little wish list that I found hard to shut out. After seeing many girls with similar or THE ONE, I remember telling Matthew about it and he was insisting that after the wedding, I treat myself to one as an ‘I DID IT’ present for all the hard work and organising the wedding, and actual work that I did beforehand.

So you know what , I did it. I bloody did it. I bought the bag of dreams. The Gucci Marmont in a gorgeous purple velvet and I tell you what, I love it. Its a classic design, I feel that most designers will have a similar equivalent in their range, something timeless and iconic.

I love the obnoxious branding, the chevron detailing and the two way wear chain. Its the pinnacle of fancy bag for me. I would normally feel ( and I have in the past) felt like anything pricey I have to get it in black to be practical, but not this time. I love that its bold, the perfect personality match, but it also matches my hair.

For me it fits very well with my wardrobe, I seem to be styling up my clothes either in monochrome with hints of my favourites colours like mustard, pinks and purples, so this little beauty fits in very well with the family.

My advice for anyone thinking of buying their first designer item, firstly, don’t feel bad about it. People will say ‘how much?!’ or try to compare it to all the other things you could buy for the same price. But the truth is, you want this. You want this item and thats how much it costs. I feel that if you’ve worked hard to save up for something you really love, than just do it. Also, this might be a little too farfetched, but I sometimes feel that people give gals a hard time for what they buy, whether it be by family or other girls. Lets put it this way, if a guy bought a Rolex, people would be like ‘Woah Andy bought a Rolex’ then move on with their lives. I mean I’m still a little bitter (as you can probably tell) by some of the snarky comments I received, but F them.

Second of all – if you’re nervous, just get the staple. Always start with staples, something that you know you’ll get use out of so you can ease your mind knowing the purchase is justified. Then the next time you want to get something later on, then maybe be a little more out there. I must admit I have caught the bug and although I don’t plan on buying anything anytime soon, I do see the appeal. It feels kinda naughty but in a good way. Any more pricey purchases will be waaaay later on down the line (I gotta save up for my driveway now) unless Matthew is feeling super generous this Christmas, that was not a hint.

Every time I wear it I just want to smile all day as for me its not just a bag, its a symbol of my year, the work, the stresses the struggles and coming through that. The build up to my wedding was incredibly stressful, not only arranging the wedding but also getting all my deadlines done before going away. I think I deserved it, so to me thats what it is.

Not to tease myself anymore, I have put a little wish list down here for what I could only dream of owning.



Photos are by Katie.




  1. 4th September 2017 / 10:43 pm

    Yes Helen!!!!! I think you absolutely deserve the bag for all the hard work that you do. It’s your money and you do what you want with it! Plenty of bloggers/YouTubers own lots of designer items and no one gives them stick for it. I also feel like this post was especially well thought out and well written and the photos are SO GOOD!! I love you and your videos and think you’re one of the most hardworking, down to earth and creative YouTubers out there. Enjoy the bag gal!!! Xx

  2. 5th September 2017 / 4:34 am

    Yeeeees, the snarky comments thing is too real. I got many when people asked how much my falabella was (and I even got it on sale so not even full price) and it’s enough to make you not want to wear it but you gotta ignore them. I love how you said it was something you wanted so screw everyone else. If it makes you happy who is it hurting? The realness, I love it!
    Fab bag, fab post.

  3. Kajsa Lindqvist
    5th September 2017 / 7:49 am

    Dear Helen. It’s very sad that women are being thought to compete with each other, instead of supporting each other. I’m in a point in my life where I can’t afford shit, so I must admit that I get jealous when I see people like you. But when that happen I tell myself to stop being a selfish brat and see you as an inspiration, and a role model. Because you are! I have never worked as hard as you are, and that will be my goal. Not to but a bag, but to work hard and therefor get the means to fulfil my own dreams. Now I just need to find my passion, stop being so gosh darn lost, and a way to work towards those dreams. What I am trying to say here, you are an inspiration and I truly love your vlogs. Keep up the good work <3 Love, Kajsa

  4. becked
    5th September 2017 / 7:58 pm

    I love this bag Helen and I love your love for this bag. I love that it matches your hair. I love it paired with the black and white stripe. I love the tactile fabric. And I f**king love you. Don’t ever change girl. You rock it and I don’t’ think I’ve ever seen a bag that is so much a particular person’s style that it could almost be custom-made as I have this bag on you my Norfolk bunny so ROCK IT and own it like you should pretty lady.

  5. 7th September 2017 / 12:20 pm

    such a good colour for you! I can’t believe you even have to explain your purchases, if you had any other job you wouldn’t have to! anyway, love the monochrome with the pop of colour – and against the mustard just looks even better!

    Laura |

  6. 14th September 2017 / 4:07 am

    Love love love this post! Also love how the bad matches your hair, looks amazing lovely x

  7. 19th September 2017 / 1:27 pm

    I see pieces like this as investments into something that will last me a lifetime. If you get 1 lovely expensive bag and wear it for a year or even two because of how much you love it instead of buying 5 cheaper bags that you barely even end up using, there’s no difference to your bank account at the end of the day, so where’s the splurge? None exists, same cost. This way: you got what you wanted and really loved, and hey, those expensive bags usually keep their value well (unlike the cheaper stuff), so if you hate it down the line, you can usually recoup some of the expense by selling it second hand anyway.

    Could not agree more about buying things that are staples first, it’s so much more worth it if you do things that way. You shouldn’t let yourself feel guilty if you bought a crazy expensive purse but you use it religiously. It was a worthy purchase if it’s in regular use.

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